Sunday, February 12, 2012

I believe all man has free will, that while a God may exist, he has no hand in our world...Yet?

Today I met a girl named Aliena who is a friend of the girl who I'm "supposedly" dating from Brazil (God, I hope neither on on here lol). I didn't know it was her friend, to me she looked caucasian at 1st but then my supposed girlfriend introduced the people as her friends from Brazil. We locked eyes and she just consumed the entire structure...I believe in love at 1st sight, in fact, any girl I've ever loved I knew the moment I saw her.... Aliena, is the name of the lead female character in my favorite novel; Ken Follett's "Pillars of the Earth". I took that name and incorporated it into my next novel which has yet to be published; The lead female character is a Latin orphan named Aliena...One look at the REAL Aliena and I knew I COULD love her. Fate? Coincidence? In a way I believe we all have a destiny. I've been on the streets homeless, flooding my veins with heroin; locked down in a stark, cold cell...but even through that impenetrable darkness, something inside me kept saying; "You are better than this, hold on, you will overcome."

I just knew... I have overcome the worst addiction on earth, published novels when nobody believed I could even finish one...Why, even in my darkest hours, did I believe I would overcome someday? Is it inherent? Is it insanity? Why did no matter how far I fell, did I still believe I would overcome all the adversity? And make no mistake, I've faced more adversity than anyone. I thought kicking heroin and 740mgs/ day of morphine would be the hardest part, yet that was the easiest. Why that much morphine? Because I was paralyzed in a car accident and initially told I was a complete injury, if I ever walked again it would be unprecedented. I wasn't a complete injury, and no, I'm not where I was before the accident, but I can stand, move my legs...The doctor said; "impossible! never!" Then I read Rudyard Kipling's "IF" again;

"If you can force your nerve, heart and sinew, to serve their term long after they are gone,"

And so hold on, when there is nothing left in you but the WILL that says to them, "HOLD ON!"...I took that to heart, and applied it to my physical therapy. I'll never forget the look on that doctor's face when I WALKED into his office (I used a walker, yes, but he'd told me even that was impossible, I had no hope so just give up now.) I told him; "Remember what you said to me that day 3 years ago?" He nodded and looked down in shame. I said; (even though I don't believe in religion, he does) "I pray for your soul, you never tell another kid he will never walk again. This here? This is your precedent."... And I limped out of his office...did I have moments of doubt? Certainly, but the day he told me that, I went up on the roof, considered throwing myself off it.

Instead I vowed to walk again. It turned out I was not a complete injury; he was wrong, i just had a great deal of swelling in my spine when the initial MRI was taken. How did I know I would walk again when the "experts" said "impossible!"? How did I know in that jail cell, I would overcome all of it, to surpass all expectations and all my peers in the process?

I don't want to hear from Religious nuts, drunk on Jesus who insist it's "The Hand of God!". Quoting bs from the Bible. I want to hear from the openminded; Inherent? Insanity (that happened become sanity) or the hand of God?

What is it that makes someone believe, when no one else does, what we are capable of, and able to accomplish?I believe all man has free will, that while a God may exist, he has no hand in our world...Yet?
Cool story bro!
I have read the stupid Bible, I was raised Catholic. I've read the Qu' ran also.... Both are full of crap

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I believe all man has free will, that while a God may exist, he has no hand in our world...Yet?
too long ranting and wrong....GOD MADE US AND THIS WORLD



THE BIBLE EXPLAINS OUR PURPOSE...TRY READING IT

WE ARE here to seek God and get saved..Matt 28:19
It's the Hand of God! Or that you had an erection.. Either way's possible.I believe all man has free will, that while a God may exist, he has no hand in our world...Yet?
Don't forget to bring a towel!
Stare at the sky (sky; lie; buy; try; nigh).
Sorry, but your questions are too long and difficult to understand what you are saying.
What a miracle of the Lord your life is. Thanks for sharing all of your story. Yes, I believe in destiny. I believe your destiny is to know and serve the master of this universe. His name is Jesus Christ and I have faith in Him to break forth in your life. Praise Him. Here is the scripture I want to show you . John 11:25-26 Jesus said to her, I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. So in Jesus name I'm praying now that you'll know it was Him who saved you through all those times in your life when the accident happened and jail and addiction. He is the God that healeth thee. He is the Lord our healer.

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